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Mar. 19th, 2006 @ 04:55 pm (no subject)
This is a shout out to everyone who has ever lived in Akron! You should definitely read this. Akron's going to be majorly affected by the voting on May 2nd. Read more...Collapse )
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Mar. 15th, 2006 @ 12:35 pm Into the void...
It seems a bit silly, updating for no one... I'm chairing my home group this month, which is going better than I expected. I'm good at neither holding the attention of a room, listening to others, or playing by the rules. But I'm managing all three better than expected, and I'm certainly getting a good deal out of the meetings, at the very least. Others seem to be as well.

I'm having a hard time making space in my schedule for meetings. Wednesday nights are a given, I always go to those. But Tuesdays and Thursdays are my fiance's days off and we get to spend so little time together. Fridays are game nights, Akron doesn't have a Saturday night meeting... of course all of these things are excuses-- my sister was going to very few meetings until someone pointed out to her that she had time to drink when she was drinking, so she had time to come to meetings. I can't say I exactly had time to put up with my alcoholics' foolishness... but I get the point. I really can make time, if I'm willing to make sacrifices. And though I hate to admit it, I have to make sacrifices to return to sanity.

Like I was ever at sanity to begin with!
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Mar. 6th, 2006 @ 07:20 pm (no subject)
The whole lack of membership thing is a little discouraging, but I suppose updating once in a while might make the place a bit more attractive. And after all, attraction rather than promotion and all that.
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Oct. 3rd, 2005 @ 12:02 pm (no subject)
Hello there, void. I'm the creator of this community. I have only recently joined alanon and am having trouble getting to meetings because I work in the evening and there aren't many day-time meetings in the Akron area. So I thought I'd create a group to fill the void and here it is. I'm struggling today because I really needed to go to a meeting and there are none today. I needed to go to a meeting because, well, because I'm still coming to terms with my life being unmanagable. I have been a doormat for far too long and now the people in my life aren't happy that they don't have me to step all over. Which is making my life seem far more unmanagable than it did when I was lying down and letting people step on me. I have been working hard to let go of my enabling, excuse-making, benefit of the doubt giving, denying behaviors. At work this means standing up for myself and telling my coworker that I won't be doing all the things I've been doing for him for the past year: doing his half of the paperwork, running all the programs that we're both supposed to run, not telling on him when he takes three hour breaks, and so on. I stood up to him in a very small way and he began shouting and I felt afraid and wondered how doing all the extra work could possibly be worse than this.

So yeah. I'm kind of lost and adrift. I'm thinking of going to an open AA meeting so that there can at least be some fellowship and support. But I always feel out of place at AA, like I'm an interloper and a spy and like I don't belong. And that isn't the case at all. I have an addiction too, but instead of being addicted to alcohol, I'm addicted to alcoholics. Or at least to enabling the unpleasant behaviors of them.

Anyway, I've never made a community before, so let's hope this works. I'd really like to meet some others who can help.
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Oct. 2nd, 2005 @ 01:31 pm (no subject)
This community is under construction. Please check back in a couple of days.
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